This quote hit me like a brick this morning. A happy brick, but it hit me hard none the less. What have I been doing? Sleeping all day, smoking cigarettes, drinking too much caffeine, hiding from life, using winter as an excuse when actually I've given up a little bit. Only a bit. I'm still teaching and performing. The ball is starting to roll on my recording project. I'm still moving along, but I'm tired and sluggish and that's getting in the way. Where is my energy?
The truth is I'm not as physically fit as I'd like to be. I'm not eating nurturing and nourishing foods. I'm avoiding exercise and I'm feeling flabby and grey. This quote, for me, is not just about the creative process. It is about looking after myself. Today when I reached for the cigarettes this quote stopped me. When I thought about popping across the road for a chocolate fix this quote stopped me. When I thought about watching TV instead of doing the work I'd promised my bandmate, this quote stopped me.
What a gift. Thank you Julia Cameron for understanding my artistic need to self-sabotage and for posting this timely quote. Now I am heading into the bathroom to take my 'before' photo and put together a small, achievable day-by-day plan that will bring back my energy and vitality.
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